I scare myself

I scare myself just thinking about you
I scare myself when I'm without you
I scare myself the moment that you're going
I scare myself when I let my thoughts run
And when they're running, I keep thinking of you
And when they're running what can I do?

I scare myself and I don't mean lightly
I scare myself, it can get frightening
I scare myself, to think what I could do
I scare myself, it's some kind of voodoo
And with that voodoo, I keep thinking of you
And with that voodoo what can I do?

And with that voodoo, I keep thinking of you
And with that voodoo what can I do?
But it's so, so very different when we're together
And I'm so, so, so much calmer, I feel better
'Cause the stars already crossed our paths forever
And the sooner that we realise it the better
And then I'll be with you and I won't scare myself
And I'll know what to do and I won't scare myself
And my thoughts will run and I won't scare myself
And I'll think of you and I won't scare myself
It's me I'm scaring, it's me I'm scaring, it's me I'm scaring, it's me I'm scaring
It's me I'm scaring, it's me I'm scaring, it's me I'm scaring, it's me I'm scaring

(Thomas Dolby)

Reason, Season and Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON . . .
It is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are!
They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an
inconvenient time, this person will say or do something
to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realise is that our need has been met,
Our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered.
And now it is time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON . . .
Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things
you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional
foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the
person, and put what you have learned to use in all
other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Goodbye My Master

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my Master
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my Master
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my Master
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, Master, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

"You're Beautiful"

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
He smiled at me on the subway.
He was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, He caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
He could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see him again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on his face,
When he thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

And I love you so by Don McLean

And I love you so,
The people ask me how,
How I've lived till now
I tell them I don't know

I guess they understand
How lonely life has been
But life began again
The day you took my hand

And yes I know how lonely life can be
Shadows follow me
The night won't set me free
But I don't let the evening get me down
Now that you're around me

And you love me too
Your thoughts are just for me
You set my spirit free
I'm happy that you do

The book at life is brief
Once the page is read
All but love is dead
That is my belief

And yes I know how loveless life can be
The shadows follow me
And the night won't set me free
But I don't let the evening bring me down
Now that you're around me

And I love you so,
The people ask me how,
How I've lived till now
I tell them ……
I don't know

LOVE YOU MASTER

I will follow Him
Follow Him wherever He may go,
And near Him, I always will be
For nothing can keep me away,
He is my destiny.

I will follow Him,
Ever since He touched my heart I knew,
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away, away from His love.

I love Him, I love Him, I love Him,
And where He goes,
I'll follow, I'll follow, I'll follow.
he'll always be my true love, my true love, my true love
from now until forever, forever, forever

I will follow Him,
Follow Him wherever He may go,
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away, away from His love...

We will follow Him,
Follow Him wherever He may go,
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep us away, away from His love...

I love Him
(Oh yes I love Him)
I'll follow
(I'm gonna follow)
True love
(He'll always be my true, true love)
Forever
(Now until forever)
I love Him, I love Him, I love Him,
And where He goes,
I'll follow, I'll follow, I'll follow,
He'll always be my true love,
My true love, my true love,
From now until forever,
Forever, forever...

There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away, away from His love

Real Men

Joe Jackson--"Real Men"

Take your mind back
I don't know when.
Some time when it always seemed to be just us and them.
Girls that wore pink,
And boys that wore blue
Boys that always grew up better men than me and you.

What's a man now?
What's a man mean?
Is he rough or is he rugged? Is he cultural and clean?
Now it's all changed
It's got to change more
'Cause we think it's getting better but nobody's really sure.

And so it goes, go round again
But now and then we wonder who the real men are...

See the nice boys,
Dancing in pairs
Golden earring, golden tan and blow wave in their hair.
Sure they're all straight
Straight as a line
All the gays are macho, can't you see their leather shine.

You don't want to sound dumb
Don't want to offend
So don't call me a faggot, not unless you are a friend.
Then if you're tall
And handsome and strong
Then you can wear a uniform and I can play along.

And so it goes, go round again
But now and then we wonder who the real men are...

Time to get scared
Time to change plan
Don't know how to treat a lady, don't know how to be a man.
Time to admit
What you call defeat
'Cause there's women running past you now and you just drag your feet.

Man makes a gun,
Man goes to war
Man can kill and man can drink and man can take a whore
Kill all the blacks
Kill all the reds
And if there's war between the sexes then there'll be no people left.

And so it goes, go round again
But now and then we wonder who the real men are...

Drama and Winter Island

Week 41 & Week 42 I am always the guy that says: Not mix SL with RL. But more than ones I see that it is a thin line. Behind every avatar is a real person. The man or woman behind the keyboard has real feelings and emotions. I know that I am real and when my avatar becomes emotional, it is me, the real guy that is emotional.

When I started at Second Live at some places I see a sign with: “NO DRAMA”.

At that time I did not know what they mending with doe’s words.

Week 41 was full with drama and week 42 starting with it. I not want to say a thing about it anymore. There is already bin said enough.

The last few days I am cleaning my tropical island because it will be soon a winter island. I made some photo’s for does who never saw it and for my own sweet memories.

The Island

The Main House

Kitchen

Living Room

Piano Room

Office and Dance Place

Bathroom

Bedroom

Aquarium under the Main House

Aquarium Room

Path to the...........

Guest House

First Floor

Second Floor

Third floor

Mountain House

Mountain House viewed from the Forrest

Gym under the Mountain House

Gym other angle view

Light House and Tim's House

We all stand together

Win or lose.

Sink or swim.

One thing is certain we'll never give in.

side by side

hand in hand

We all stand together.

Play the game

fight the fight

but wath's the point on a beautiful night

arm in arm

hand in hand

we all stand together

lalalalalalalala

keeping us warm in the night

lalalalalalalala

walk in the light you'll get it right

lalalalalalalala

keeping us warm in the night

lalalalalalalala

walk in the light you'll get it right

Win or lose

sink or swim

one thing is certain we'll never give in

arm in arm

hand in hand

we all stand together

we all stand together

Thank you for being a friend

Thank you for being a friend
Traveled down the road and back again
your heart is true you're a pal and a confidant

I'm not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow

And if you threw a party
Invited everyone you knew
You would see, the biggest gift would be for me
and the card attached would say,
Thank you for being a friend

Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend

If it's a car you lack
I'd surely buy you a cadillac
Whatever you need, anytime of the day or night

I'm not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow

And when we both get older
With walking canes and hair of gray
Have no fear, even though it's hardly here
I will stand real close and say,
Thank you for being a friend

(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Let me tell you bout a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend

And when we die, and float away
I'll see you there, and once again
Thank you for being a

Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
Whoa, tell you about a friend
(Thank you right now, for being a friend)
Thank you for being a friend
(I wanna tell you right now, and tell you again)
Thank you for being a friend
(I wanna thank you, thank you, for being a friend)
Thank you for being a friend

And I can't get it out of my head,

Midnight on the water;
I saw the ocean's son.
Walking on a wave he came,
Staring as he called my name.
And I can't get it out of my head,
No, I can't get it out of my head;
Now my old world is gone for dead
'Cause I can't get it out of my head.

Breakdown on the shoreline.
Can't move, it's an ebbtide.
Morning don't get here till night.
Searching for his silver light.
And I can't get it out of my head,
No, I can't get it out of my head.
Now my old world is gone for dead
'Cause I can't get it out of my head, no no.

Big job in the city...
Robin Hood and William Tell and
Ivanhoe and Lancelot,
They don't envy me, yeah.
Sitting till the sun goes down,
In dreams the world keep going round and round.
And I can't get it out of my head,
No, I can't get it out of my head.
Now my old world is gone for dead
'Cause I can't get it out of my head, no no.

Sunday october 5th 2008

This morning, when I logged in, Sir William sends me an IM. He asks me if my feet also hurt me, after that long dancing yesterday. His did. He told me he did some shopping at Rooster and I told him about Vitaman. Both shops I like a lot. I showed him the shop. After Sir William bought his things and get the freebie, he told about his new pup.
He is a builder and owns a sim. Sir William showed me the Sim and yes it looks great.
Here are some photo’s I took there.

Later this Sunday Abadon sends me an IM. Abadon and I become friends at Master party.
He told me that he remember me from Gor. I asked him, “Brother, why did you remember me? My avatar is not the same as when I was at Gor.” I my self had not special memories about Abadon but some how his name did sounded familiar. He told me: “It’s not the avie babe but the name and why I remember it is cosh it is a very South African name”.
We did IM a little more and than he told me he have also an open Sim, just as I.
( I get the idea that all the slaves have a Sim lol))
I invite him to my Sim and showed him around and when we where at Tim’s house Tim logged in and joined us.Abadon told us some things about his history and that he had to solve some problems at SL.
After Tim showed Abadon his house and we both showed him the rest of the Sim, we went to his Sim. Just before we logged out Master came on line and we went to him and give him a hug and kiss and all logged out

Master's Rez day

Week 40

Last week we al where very busy with Master’s first rez day. That is the day that he was born at SL. Tim came up with the idea to give a party and Levi with the idea to have a small party on Tuesday September 30, master’s official Rez day, for just the four of us.
He would make a Faberge egg and than we would place our gifts in it. He would help Tim and me to make our things. I came up with the idea to give Master a corsage for his suites that he wears, now he is a shop owner. Levi is a great builder and a good teacher to. But this time it was hard to follow his instruction to make a flower, that I become angry and run to my house and cool off making a simple vase with red roses and a song in it. Building is helping me to think and I saw that run away, saying nothing, was not good. I felt bad about my behaviour but still felt anger in side and I went back to Tim and Levi. They where both very angry. My wise brother Tim told in one line what happen between Levi and me. That was as a cold bucket of water thrown over me. Tim did accept my apologize but it took me longer with Levi. Happily later that night and with the help of Master, we could hug again.

On Tuesday we had our small party with Master. Tim brought a great “happy Rez day” cake and we had a great evening with Master, with dancing on You Tube clips that we uploaded.
Wednesday Tim did send the invitations to the people on the list we made. Friday I had much trouble with my computer so I was unable to help Tim and our neighbour Franz with the decorations for he party.
Saturday we brothers did shop a little to get some clothes for the party. At 17:00 CET Master came online and we had to keep him a way from Tiger’s Isle where the party would start at 19:00. Happily Master wanted to clean the cellar and then we went to look for a lab dance.
When we took Master to Tiger’s Isle, he was very surprised and even more when some good friends of him came to the party. We had a great time. When Rez, our DJ, had to leave, Fauxy took over and played some of Master’s favourite’s songs. After 5 hours the party was over.
Later that night I had a long conversation with Master. We talked about the first day we met and about our relation. Exhausted and happy I want to bed and slept very well.

This week was also a week of friendship. I made new friends, old friends came back and to some I become closer. I even met Fetch again. He was my brother at Gor. He was there when I came to White Water Falls not long after my own Rez day. But that’s a story I will tell later.

My Second Live

Today I start my own Blog about my live at Second Live. Not sure if it will be interesting for does who read it. I am at Second Life almost a year now and already so much things happen to me as in a life time in real. I will dig in my memory to tell you some of my history and wil wright about want happen today.
This week we celibrate my Master Rod's first Rez day. Yes, I am his boy, he owns me now for more than 3 months and our band is become stronger and stronger. The same happen with brother Tim and I. First he wanted me feed to the sharks and now we are the best friends.